처음으로 그 자리에 대한 예의를 갖춘 사람을 만났다. 말과 행동 하나하나 정말 성의껏 하는 모습이 신선하다 못해 감동적이기까지 했으나..... 나한테 관심이라고는 1도 없으면서 어떻게 그렇게 마지막 순간까지 예의바르게, 성의있게 대하지? (그런 자세는 정말 좀 배워야겠다) 정말이지 전화번호 물어볼 필요까지는 없었는데... 설사 몇 번 더 만난다고 해도 어떻게 끝날지 너무나 뻔한데. 늦는다고 말한 순간부터 ㅈㄴ 빡쳤을 텐데 티도 하나도 안내고. 진짜 복받을거다 그사람 ㅠㅠ 좋은 분 만나실거에요 ㅠㅠ
I know that my head is way up in the clouds, but I know that this is not what I want. 정말 pie in the sky라는 거 알지만, I already know what I want and that I can't have it unless and until I become the person that I think I ought to be.
Then there is that fear -- what if all that I think I should be and all that I think I should do is just big load of BS? Thoughts I've been conditioned and socialized to think? Desires that aren't really my own? Not the life that my Maker intended for me to live?
그래서 오늘도 I ask, again -- What do you want from me? What do you want me to do? What is the life that you imagined for me, what is it like?
How I wish and pray that I would be able to take at least a glimpse of that life before I die.
I know that my head is way up in the clouds, but I know that this is not what I want. 정말 pie in the sky라는 거 알지만, I already know what I want and that I can't have it unless and until I become the person that I think I ought to be.
Then there is that fear -- what if all that I think I should be and all that I think I should do is just big load of BS? Thoughts I've been conditioned and socialized to think? Desires that aren't really my own? Not the life that my Maker intended for me to live?
그래서 오늘도 I ask, again -- What do you want from me? What do you want me to do? What is the life that you imagined for me, what is it like?
How I wish and pray that I would be able to take at least a glimpse of that life before I die.
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