easy life

Life is too easy for me.
No, I mean, I think I have been living my life with very little effort.
거저 먹는 인생.

Maybe I'm not strong enough to take anything 'harder' than this.
God, knowing this, has (graciously) given me a very uneventful, (over-)protected life.

계속 이렇게 강도 낮은 삶을 살다가 스르륵 fade away 해버리는건가.

There are so many things in this world that I have not experienced..
In this world, there is so much pain, difficulty, sadness, that I do not know of.
I fail to understand even the people who are very close and dear to me.

The things I worry about look so trivial compared to what 'great minds' or those who are deeply troubled have to worry about on a daily basis.

There are so many points of view and situations that I fail to comprehend/ appreciate.

I'm glad to have lived a pretty painless life, but I,... I also see the limitations of a person who has lived such a life.
Great, big shortfalls that come from not being able to understand or to sympatize with so many people.

And I worry that these shortcomings might be a stumbling block to creating changes that I say I want to make.
I worry that I might be nothing but a hypocrite,
pretending to understand other people and their situations when I really don't know sh*t (난 정말 쥐뿔도 모르는 게 참 많다),
pretending to care about others without really knowing what goes on in their lives.


Sorry people, I'm just an inexperienced, twenty-four-year-old child who doesn't know much and is too afraid to dare to know more.