why, I ask myself

선견지명이 있으면 뭘하나
행동력이 없는데

It was MY idea, and now everyone is copying it.

I was going to go to law school even if the prospects for being a lawyer would deteriorate.
I decided to be an international lawyer LONG before people knew what the heck that is. (When I was in middle school and told people my dream was to become an international lawyer, people used to ask "What do they do?")

But what good is it now? Everyone is jumping into preparations for law school just because of the economic downturn. 정말 막말로 ‘개나 소나’ 로스쿨을 준비한다. 준비하다가 그만뒀다는 사람들도 산더미만큼 있다. A law school degree doesn't signify a job anymore. (Look at people like JP - altho I'm doubtful whether he actually has a degree, anyway)

How am I going to explain that I've wanted to be a lawyer for as long as I can remember? That I've never even considered choosing any other career path?

What exactly was the motivation behind my decision (??? or rather, non-decision, perhaps)?

It was never about the money. Maybe it was about the respect lawyers get in Korean society - how it's praised and looked up upon as a ‘士자 직업’. Maybe that made the job look glamorous. Or maybe 어린마음에 I thought I could contribute to 'justice' or 'setting things right' if I studied law and could use it as a tool. Now I know that law in its nature is 정태적 and how it mostly contributes to bolstering the status quo. Now I know how abstract and relative the idea of 'justice' can be (IS it something humans should decide?).

But I still want to be a lawyer.

Maybe I'm not being honest to myself.
Maybe the real reason is simply that I've never explored or considered other careers and that I'm afraid to make any choice that digresses from the path I've been walking on. Maybe I'm just a big scaredy-cat, 급급해 to keep up with the reputation I've built up since I was a teenager.

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What the heck am I going to write on my personal statement???