Homework

There was once a time when I actually LIKED doing my homework.
No matter how stupid I thought an assignment was, I'd do it, cuz I knew I had to do it (and also because mom would check up on me).
So what happened? Since when did I start hating to do my homework?
When did doing homework become such a chore?
Was it in middle school, when mom started sending me to 학원?
Even then, I didn't hate doing my homework - except for math homework.. And even for math I always finished it the night before I had to hand it in.
What happened? Huh?
Since when did it become so hard to write three pages based on what I've read?
What is it that I like doing so much that it gets in the way of getting homework done?

Okay enough babbling about and back to actually doing my homework.!!!

Romeo married his Juliette!

Romeo ♡ Juliette
임태경&박소연
2009년 10월 24일 결혼.

대략 동화속 이야기.
소연씨,
i hope you realize how lucky you are...
태경씨 아프거나 머리카락 하나라도 잘못되면
이제 무조건 당신탓이거 알지?
올케들이 쫌 장난 아니다..
손발이 오그라드는 시집살이 각오하세염!!!

Im Taekyung♡♡♡

This guy melts me down to my knees.
His voice is so beautiful sometimes I think he might not be human.

Gackt - Ghost @ Asia Song Festival

at Sang-am World Cup Stadium,

September 2009 Asia Song Festival

Gackt - Redemption @ Asia Song Festival

September 2009 at Sang-am World Cup Stadium

대한민국!
오랜만에 대한민국! (혹은 오랫만이야 대한민국)
오랜만에 서울! (오랫만이야 서울)
너희들의 목소리를 들려주지 않겠어?
그정도야? 그정도밖에 안돼?
소리질러!

end of term

아 정말 지긋지긋해

십수년째 이러고 있는 나도 지긋지긋하고

다음학기엔 꼭 학기초에 paper topic정해서 미리미리 쓰자 좀 제발 좀.

나 정말 이래서 유학 어떻게 가지?ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Honestly,

솔직히 난 싫은데...
because I know what's going to happen.
싸우지만 말았으면 좋겠다.
정말, 솔직히, 나는 judge로 가고싶은데;;
휴... 빠져나갈 방법이 있다면 좋겠지만 없다면... 정말 없다면 욕심 다 버리고 배운다는 마음으로 가야지. 한개라도 더 배워와서 애들한테 알려줘야지.


/오늘은 꼭 3시 전에 자야지!!!
오늘은 심지어는 집에 일찍와서 지금까지 학교일은 하나도 안하고 진짜 오래간만에 tv드라마도보고;; 이럴때가 아닌데 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Hello?

아제발정신좀차리자제발좀!!
오늘도이시간까지이게도대체뭐하는짓이야!!
4시간30분동안 도대체 뭘한거지????

망하면안된다망하면안된다망하면안되

내일은 절대로 지각하지 말아야지.

170th post

1. 이놈의 지긋지긋한 아르바이트로부터 자유로웠으면 좋겠다. But then again it's what's been keeping me alive for the past year and a half. (Since July 24th, 2008...wow.) I guess I should hand some work over to Y for the time being.

2. 뜨거웠으면 좋겠다, 내가. Not lukewarm. 그리고 세상에 대한 분노와 의심, 냉소, 이런 negative feelings 가 열정과 애정의 positive energy로 replace됐으면 좋겠다. So how can I do this?

3. Along the same train of thought,.. I wish I could find a source of fun and joy not from something I pay with money for, but from within myself. Fun that is not superficial and fading. Something more like 'passion' rather than mere enjoyment.
M said nothing beats falling in love, in that respect. That may be true, but even M agreed that even that fades away with time.
Starting new things, becoming involved in new activities, meeting new people... these are all great ways to excite oneself, but it is not this level of excitement that I am talking about.
Something compelling, coming from within myself, a motivation to get out there and do stuff. Something that will actually make me want to get up in the morning.
Where can I get something like that? And how?
Maybe there really is no answer but to have a closer, better, deeper relationship with God.
Okay, even then, even if we say that is THE answer, where do I start?
I feel like I am jumping into the ocean to find a grain of golden sand...