purpose

okay I know this is going to make me sound like a biotch and maybe I am one,
but I need to write this down so I can look at it later (soon) and remind myself why the hell I am making myself go through this.

I didn't decide to go to law school for the fame or the money.

I came here because I wanted affirmation that I was smart! That I am (intellectually) superior compared to many people! I felt like I wasn't getting enough and getting too comfortable in my 'home ground', so I left to see 'the world out there' and to get approval from there as well!

And what did I get when I got here?

Affirmation, STRONG affirmation, EVERY DAY and EVERY HOUR that I am dumb, lazy, and don't even have the 배짱 to get over it or pretend that I'm not.

That's why I don't want to study right now.

But I'm only going to prove to the world that I am in fact dumb, lazy, and a wimp if I don't study now.

So I should. Study.

Now.