Showing posts with label Health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Health. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 12, 2022

20221012

So uh... today my [physical] therapist asked me 'personal questions' for the first time

오늘은 기분이 아주 좋은 편이었던 듯 - usually he doesn't make small talk because he knows I prefer to just relax and not talk during my treatment. But today he was really chatty!

Opening with... 마스크 너무 깜찍한거 아니에요? (and no one had commented on my 마스크 today😢 even though my 마스크 usually is a conversation starter..! #greenbliss #동백꽃마스크 Although that was probably because I was buried with work all day and didn't hang out with anyone except my team)

can't even remember why this came up, but 몇년생이세요?

and he was truly genuinely shocked when he heard my answerㅎㅎㅎ

와... 엄청난 동안이시네요 책가방메면 완전 학생인데요 don't you get carded when you go drinking 

이마가 백만불짜리에요 (first time I've ever heard this from a man. how...why..... is he gay or does he just have too many sisters..... Anyway, so you've been looking at my face this whole time huh? 😏)

and I don't remember which topic came up first but 무슨 전공 하셨어요? (and man did I contemplate whether or not to tell him I studied law! yeah I ended up telling him I majored in international studies, basically 'diplomacy' in non-DIS-speak..) yeah why did this come up at all?

It felt good! I just really like feeling like I'm being taken care of, so every time I go for treatment I come back in a good mood, but today it felt good also because it felt like... he is genuinely curious about me, with no ulterior motive. and of course it felt good to know that it was mutual! Now that I think about it, I think he was wondering about all these things all along but for some reason today he had the urge to (or found the courage to? or just because I was responding to him being chatty, which is usually not the case?) ask all these questions.

So yeah, I should try to 'graduate' from physical therapy because my back pain has reduced substantially now and honestly it's costing me so much money (yeah gotta remember to ask about insurance $$$ with the receptionist), BUT....

I don't want to!!!!! Because I don't want to part with my therapist! T^T Just the thought that I won't see my therapist again makes me so sad 😭😭😭😭😭

Could we be friends? Do people become friend with their physical therapists? Is that healthy? Even if we do become friends, what's the use if I stop going to get treatment -- I mean, it's not like we're going to exchange numbers or anything like....that..........

Why haven't I even considered the possibility that he could be gay until now?!? Funny how one reveals so much about oneself while asking questions about the other...

.... and after all this, I realize: I NEED TO HAVE REAL FRIENDS IN REAL LIFE. GOD AM I LONELY. and then I feel like my life is pathetic.

................. Okay maybe it's time to move to a new blog, because I know a handful of people know who is writing this blog (although I doubt they remember) and stuff like this is a bit... embarrassing to disclose, even to that particular handful of people.....

And high hope for tomorrow that I can leave work before 7pm!!!!! and let the weekend begin!!!!!

Ah right and I need to change next week's appointment bc 청첩모임!


Sunday, September 4, 2022

Chronic back pain: Scoliosis, flat back, and flat neck!

..... so I've been getting physical therapy (manual therapy + some electrical??? stuff) every week for over two months now... 

And I keep thinking -- has anyone known my body more than my physical therapist?!

This is a type of / level of intimacy that I did NOT expect or anticipate when I started getting treatment...


Saturday, November 18, 2017

20171118

The reason why I'm upset is,
I showed you the world and you..... Just fucking sat there and enjoyed being liked. Why did I fucking grace you with amusement and my company when you didn't fucking deserve it? Why did I treat you like I used to treat my most precious friends when I barely even knew you? Even after I understood that you were in a bad place? And why do I think you deserve a farewell when I nowknow that nothing that I do or say can resuscitate you?
I'm mad at myself for getting my hopes up for a hopeless fool like you (at least with all the shit you're currently in),
for realizing too late that you were and still are in pretty deep shit,
for wasting my precious time and emotions on what was already a lost cause,
for not having a life interesting enough to know better than to waste time with a schmuck like you.

I do hope I learn from this.. Learn to have fun on my own, to 'not have the time to sit around and be bored'.
To learn to respect myself and the fact that every day I am continuously given life, to learn how to live in honor of the fact that I AM ALIVE, that I am young and in good health and have a roof over my head and a job,
Ultimately, to learn how to make the best use of my time.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

[NYT] Doulas, a Growing Force in Maternity Culture, Seek Greater Acceptance

http://nyti.ms/16M9Dtp




On the morning of the day Marisa Pizarro gave birth, the usual tumult reigned in her apartment in Lower Manhattan’s financial district. Her husband, a music producer known as J Grand, in shower sandals and gym shorts, was busy tending to their toddler daughter, the financial news on TV and his iPad, where he was still rearranging tracks on a forthcoming release.

His wife, her contractions now 10 minutes apart, was almost an afterthought. But who could blame him? Ms. Pizarro had her doula, Domino Kirke, attending to her every need, absorbing every hint of snappishness.

So Mr. Grand seemed thrilled to be needed when the doula finally turned to him and said, “J?”
“Car?” he replied.
“Soon,” Ms. Kirke said.
“I’m ready!” he said. “Would you like the finest that Uber has to offer, babe? V.I.P. S.U.V.? What’s the name of this hospital?”

Doulas are a growing force in the ever-changing culture of maternity, at once a manifestation of the growing demand for personal service (the doorman, the yoga teacher, Amazon Prime) and a backlash against the perceived overmedicalization of birth, with its high rates of cesarean sections.

But because of resistance from the medical profession and lack of insurance reimbursement, they are still a small part of the system. A recent report estimated that there are as many as 400 doulas working in New York City who attend about 5,600 births a year, or about 5 percent of all births.

Now they are organizing into formal networks, agitating for insurance coverage and making the case that they can improve maternal health and make the process of giving birth safer for the mother and the baby. The medical establishment has kept its distance, though, wary of adding a new member to the birth team and the bill.

For many women, the doula (an antiquated Greek word for a female servant) offers less-fraught emotional support than do sisters, mothers or husbands. They offer tactics to help women manage the pain of labor, as Lamaze breathing classes did to a previous generation. They are familiar faces and patient advocates in a situation where the patient may be meeting the nurses or the obstetrician on call for the first time during the birth. They also consult on prenatal subjects like nutrition and postpartum challenges like breast-feeding.

“We’re not there to change what the parents get,” said Adele Loux-Turner, a doula based in Brooklyn. “We’re there to help get what they want. If there’s a conversation to be had, we do and can let it be known that we’re there to kind of eliminate the hidden menu items.”

Doulas do not need a license to practice, but many of them receive certification through doula organizations like Dona International.

Some doctors say they understand how doulas fill a need in an impersonal hospital setting, and at the very least, feel obliged to honor their presence because they are what the patients want.

“Having a baby in New York City is a very lonely thing,” Dr. Jacques Moritz, an obstetrician at Mount Sinai Roosevelt hospital in Manhattan, said. “A doula is like a personal trainer. Not that you can’t do it yourself; it’s just nicer if you have a personal coach for it.”

At the same time, he and other doctors said doulas sometimes tried to insert themselves between the patient and the doctor in the name of protecting the patient. Yet in the end, they say, it is the medical personnel who are responsible for bad outcomes.

Dr. Amos Grunebaum, director of obstetrics at NewYork-Presbyterian Hospital/Weill Cornell Medical Center, said as long as doulas were not subject to licensing and credentialing requirements, it was hard for him to imagine how they could be fully recognized by insurance companies or hospitals.

He said many doulas might be surprised to find they would have to take a cut in pay if they switched from cash to insurance. The $2,000 fee commanded by some experienced New York City doulas, he said, was “not far away” from his insurance fee for a normal birth, excluding prenatal care.

Some hospitals hand out identity badges to doulas who work closely with their obstetricians. But others do not acknowledge them as part of the delivery team and count doulas as part of the mother’s quota of friends and family members allowed in the room, often forcing women to choose between them.

Doulas are asking for more recognition and for states to have Medicaidcover their services. But insurance coverage is still rare, according to Choices in Childbirth, a maternal advocacy group that released a reportpromoting doula care last year.

Oregon’s Medicaid program covers doulas, but it is hard to trace how frequently they are used because their services are often encompassed in a more general bill for maternity services, a spokeswoman for the Oregon Health Authority, Stephanie Tripp, said.

In New York, the By My Side Birth Support Program, which has provided free doula services to more than 400 low-income women in Brooklyn, has found that doulas led to a “definite improvement” in breast-feeding, but only a slight reduction in C-sections, perhaps because doulas could not influence hospital policy, said Mary-Powel Thomas, director of the program, a federal and city partnership.

Two years ago, Ms. Kirke set up a doula collective, Carriage House Birth, with two partners, and they have attracted about 35 members.

On a recent Saturday, about a dozen people, half doulas and half potential clients, gathered at the group’s headquarters, the garden apartment of a townhouse tucked among the flea markets and artists’ lofts of Williamsburg, Brooklyn. Embroidered pillows, a rocking chair, a terra-cotta figurine squatting to give birth, and other birth talismans decorated the space.

The doulas could be distinguished from the clients just by their facial expressions; one group looked serene, the other anxious.

For many doulas, their work is a second job, the new waitressing, conducted only with a sense of higher purpose. Ms. Kirke is a singer. Ms. Loux-Turner came to New York to be a dancer. Jill Silberstein tells the attentive couples that she is a producer in advertising, “but doula work is my passion and I do that at night and on weekends.”

Some of the expectant couples wonder about the difference between a midwife, who is medically trained to deliver a baby, and a doula, who is not. Ms. Loux-Turner told the group that even with a midwife attending the birth, they may need a doula. “A good midwife is pretty hands-off,” she said. “There’s warmth there, but they are really for the waist down, and doulas are for the waist up.”

Ms. Pizarro, the mother in the financial district, had found Ms. Kirke through word of mouth before the birth of her first child. Even though she was determined to give birth without painkillers, one nurse constantly offered epidural anesthesia, she said. Ms. Kirke gave her the strength to refuse. “I feel like doulas put the ball back in the mom’s court,” Ms. Kirke said. “They trust you to normalize the high drama.”

A few hours before her recent delivery, Ms. Pizarro and Ms. Kirke walked around the block in a light snow, pausing for contractions, prompting one passer-by to ask whether they needed an ambulance.

Mr. Grand called Uber when contractions were five minutes apart, and they arrived at Mount Sinai Roosevelt hospital at 11:44 a.m. A nurse took Ms. Pizarro into the examination room, then returned to point a finger at Ms. Kirke and say, “She wants you.”

The baby, a boy, was born three hours after their arrival. Mr. Grand kissed his wife and called out for sushi.

http://nyti.ms/16M9Dtp

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

[Devex] Lawyers push lawsuit against UN for Haiti cholera outbreak

http://www.ijdh.org/2015/01/topics/health/united-states-district-court-southern-district-of-new-york/
DELAMA GEORGES, et al.,v. UNITED NATIONS, et al.

Lawyers push lawsuit against UN for Haiti cholera outbreak

By Claire Luke27 January 2015

Human rights lawyers in New York are preparing to file an appeal against a U.S. judge’s decision to dismiss a class action lawsuit against the United Nations, the next step in an uphill battle that, if successful, may change the way the public can hold the institution accountable for its actions.
The appeal is the latest in the much-publicized case alleging that the United Nations negligently introduced cholera to Haiti after the catastrophic 2010 earthquake that tarnished the U.N.’s reputation in the troubled Caribbean state.
The lawsuit, Georges et al. v. United Nations et al., was dismissed Jan. 9 in the Southern District Court of New York on the grounds that the United Nations is exempt to charges against its immunity.
Brian Concannon, executive director of the Boston-based Institute for Justice and Democracy in Haiti — the first to file claims on behalf of 5,000 cholera victims and their families — told Devex the appeal will argue that the United Nations should not be able to use its immunity as a shield for negligence and misconduct.
At least 8,721 Haitians have died and 717,203 have become ill from the disease since an outbreak occurred in 2010. It was caused by a cholera strain not present in Haiti until peacekeepers from an area in Nepal that was experiencing an outbreak at the time came to Haiti and stayed at a camp where their waste contaminated the country’s largest river, as scientific studies and a U.N. report itself found.
The United Nations has not accepted responsibility for the case or compensated victims despite the organization’s own rules to provide an alternate remedy to those claiming to be harmed by its operations. If the U.N. does not comply with its obligations, Concannon said, it should not be able to invoke its immunity.
“The judge said U.S. courts have always said the U.N. is completely immune to everything,” Concannon told Devex. “But we think the U.N. is extending the immunity beyond where it's ever been extended before.”
The executive director stressed that immunity should be a “two-way street.”
“You give the U.N. protection for being sued — which is a huge grant of power — and in turn the organization has obligations. We're saying you need to enforce the two-way street,” he said.

No official review process

The organization has an internal process to handle claims made against peacekeeping missions. Third-party claimants must first seek resolution through Section 29 of the Convention on the Privileges and Immunities of the United Nations in an internal claims review board.
In response to the complaint from cholera victims, the institution publicly declared that the claims were “not receivable,” marking the first time it did not go through the official review process with respect to a peacekeeping mission. Still seeking compensation, lawyers then turned to U.S. courts, filing three lawsuits.
Thus, Concannon said this case differs from previous lawsuits against the United Nations because the complaint was not accepted to be processed by the review board before lawyers sought action in the U.S. judicial system.
“In this case, the U.N. said ‘we’re not going to have any process at all,’” he said.
The United Nations has not responded to the lawsuit. When contacted, press officer Sophie Boutaud de la Combe said it was “not … practice to discuss in public claims filed against the organization,” and that “the case is ongoing.”
“The U.S. government had made submissions to the court indicating its position that the United Nations and its officials were immune from the service of legal process as well as the lawsuit under the Convention on the Privileges and Immunities of the United Nations,” Combe said, alluding to the Jan. 9 hearing. “This position was ultimately adopted by the court.”

‘One of the gravest injustices’

In the hearing, New York Southern District Judge Paul Oetken compared the case to one in which U.N. High Commissioner for Refugees employee Cynthia Brzak complained of sexual harassment against then-high commissioner Ruud Lubbers in 2003. Brzak first sought action through the U.N. system but after finding the results inadequate, she went through the U.S. judicial system, where the verdict was the court would not question the U.N.’s internal process.
“As the Second Circuit held in Brzak, the language of Section 2 of the CPIUN is clear, absolute, and does not refer to Section 29: The U.N. is immune from suit unless it expressly waives its immunity,” Oetken stated.
But Concannon asserts this case differs from Brzak’s because the U.N. declined to apply the internal settlement process in this case whatsoever.
If the United Nations does lose the case, it will need to provide a settlement mechanism for victims of the cholera outbreak and can lose immunity if it does not, Concannon said. Further, he believes the United Nations did not want to provide settlement because it is embarrassed by its settlement mechanism, which takes the form of panels “completely controlled” by the United Nations to determine compensation that’s “very unfair to victims.”
The United Nations has a $50,000 cap on loss of life, low compensation for sickness based on lost wages and medical bills, and no pain and suffering. Most people infected throughout Haiti were treated at public clinics and not charged so lack medical bills, and were living on $2 a day or less, with many patients — especially women and children — lacking salary stubs for lost wages compensation.
This case hits at the fundamental issue of the public holding the United Nations accountable for its actions, and taking accountability could help the global body reduce harm, increase accountability for peacekeepers and avoid lawsuits in the future, Concannon said.
The case is “one of the gravest injustices” according to Wesley Laine, a Haitian law student at Sciences Po who will join IJDH to work on the group’s appeal. Laine is one of many lawyers who have voiced disdain at the U.N.’s dismissal of the case and said it undermines the global body’s credibility in Haiti. But he is confident the lawyers will win the case.
“By refusing to compensate the victims, the United Nations has reinforced the perverse idea that an impoverished human being is an isolated person unworthy of due process or any legal rights,” he told Devex from Paris. “However, when the lawsuit prevails, it will forge a new morality within the international judicial apparatus, and restore more humane principles on which the United Nations must operate.”
The notice of appeal, due Feb. 14, will be brought to a federal court in New York within the next half year.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

[세계견문록 아틀라스] 일본의 료칸 속으로

세계견문록 아틀라스 - ATLAS_일본 료칸 속으로 2부 건강을 선물하다_#003

http://youtu.be/XLDm6DZWla4
와 저기 나오는 녹차 료칸이랑 다이어트 료칸 진짜!!! 가보고 싶다 +_+
저렇게 멋진 곳에서 승마!!!!!! 아 완전 로망 +_+
한/중/일 다도를 모두 배워보는 것 역시 나의 로망 중 하나..... *_*

세계견문록 아틀라스 - ATLAS_일본 료칸 속으로 3부 끝없는 진화_#001

http://youtu.be/MDEoOBtnuYk

세계견문록 아틀라스 - ATLAS_일본 료칸 속으로 3부 끝없는 진화_#003

http://youtu.be/W34ZFXpY7EA
바다가 보이는 노천탕 또한 로망!!!

Monday, January 26, 2015

[EBS Documentary] 하나뿐인 지구 시리즈

People Tree: Sustainable and Fair Trade Fashion
http://www.peopletree.co.uk/

Ethical Fashion OrgDot 오르그닷
http://www.orgdot.co.kr/

패스트 패션이 말해주지 않는 것 (1)
http://youtu.be/n0H4l5UOGl8

당신의 겨울 외투, 알파카와 라쿤 (1)
http://youtu.be/NVLFQe5fLQw
*Warning: This one gets pretty graphic at times
(와우 이거 진짜 너무 끔찍해서 다시는 모피 안입겠다, 양모나 캐시미어도 되도록이면 자제하겠다고 마음먹게 됨ㅠㅠ)

우유, 소젖을 먹는다는 것에 대하여 (1)
http://youtu.be/Edhvc3fWOkQ

당신은 개를 키우면 안된다 (1)
http://youtu.be/VBT-r1aD0PA

세바시 435회 강형욱 반려견 훈련사
http://youtu.be/ecUWKU_v318

당신은 반려동물과 이별할 준비가 되었나요? (1)
http://youtu.be/o634QEtjx1Y
하 내가 진짜 이것땜에 동물 못키우겠어ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

동물원 월요병
http://youtu.be/nPzY08PvyxU

어느날 갑자기, 로드킬
http://youtu.be/zv2RB6HTKlI

돌고래와 당신의 이야기
http://youtu.be/ri2F98ituNI

Sunday, January 25, 2015

[여성주의 저널 일다]

정신의료 ‘조기 개입’ 흐름 위험하다
등교거부, 발달장애도 정신질환으로 여겨 약물 투여
<여성주의 저널 일다> 시마다 가즈코 
http://www.ildaro.com/sub_read.html?uid=6961%C2%A7ion=sc1


호치민에 청년농부들이 떴다!
<아맙이 만난 베트남 사회적기업> 녹색청년공동체
<여성주의 저널 일다> 구수정공정여행과 공정무역을 통해 한국과 베트남을 잇는 사회적 기업 ‘아맙’(A-MAP)이 베트남 곳곳에서 지역공동체를 위해 활동하고 있는 사회적 기업과 모임을 소개합니다.
http://www.ildaro.com/sub_read.html?uid=6965%C2%A7ion=sc4


용산참사 6주년에 묻다 ‘생명은 소중한가요?’
[내가 만난 세상, 사람] 안전한 삶을 희망하며
<여성주의 저널 일다> 너울※ 너울 님은 <꽃을 던지고 싶다: 아동 성폭력 피해자로 산다는 것> 수기를 쓴 저자입니다.
http://www.ildaro.com/sub_read.html?uid=6963%C2%A7ion=sc1


“우리 엄마가 CCTV로 다 보고 있어요”
정부의 ‘어린이집 아동폭력 근절대책’ 역효과 우려
<여성주의 저널 일다> 나랑 
http://www.ildaro.com/sub_read.html?uid=6962%C2%A7ion=sc1

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

[NYT] What 2,000 calories looks like

You MUST look at these photos.

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2014/12/22/upshot/what-2000-calories-looks-like.html?emc=edit_th_20141223&nl=todaysheadlines&nlid=58369871&abt=0002&abg=1

Permalink http://nyti.ms/1wWuhBd

What 2,000 Calories Looks Like

Permalink http://nyti.ms/1wWuhBd

Monday, December 8, 2014

[TED] Ruby Wax: What's so funny about mental illness?




Diseases of the body garner sympathy, says comedian Ruby Wax — except those of the brain. Why is that? With dazzling energy and humor, Wax, diagnosed a decade ago with clinical depression, urges us to put an end to the stigma of mental illness.