Of course,

Why else would they keep in touch?
Why else would he have been there that day?
And why else would she have rushed out like that?

Of course she used to be his girlfriend.
I knew it the moment he described her as "a good girl" but didn't want to admit it.
And of course there wasn't any material evidence to prove it back then.
I've been browsing his Facebook, Myspace, Cyworld, and Xanga pages for the past week only to find proof (not that he put up pictures of her everywhere - just a couple on Facebook and maybe one on Cy).


Why did he have to be so nice and so cheerful and friendly?
도대체 왜 먼저 아는 척을 했을까?
And why did he have to say "I think you're better than her"?
그냥 '착한 사람'이었던거야.
And a very flatteringly 착한 one at that.

He was a film student.
His Korean is actually quite good.
He was the representative of a bigass student organization.
And an active participant in an NGO.
He worked and travelled in China after graduating.
He's one of those people that still believe he can change the world.
I love his naivete and passion..
He is so many things I wish I was.
The more I learn about him, the more I feel infinitely small.
Would I be able to become someone like him, in two years?
(He's two years older than me.. and so is she. Which is another thing tha bothers me, because to him I must look like a lil kid.)
Yet we have so much in common, I keep thinking.
So much more we could talk about other than what LSAT prep we used or how many schools we plan to apply to.

In fact, for the past week,
when I wasn't thinking about writing cover letters and resumes and sending the right ones to the right addresses,
I was thinking about him.

It's so unfair when these things happen, this situation where I know so much about him and all he knows about me is that I speak English and want to go to law school. I hate this imbalance of information, this imbalance of interest.
It's always like this when I develop interest in a guy.
I don't want to be the one making the moves. Especially because I think that's the reason all my 작업s since age 10 have failed.
Then again, I'm thinking -- we won't have anything to talk about until the second week of January, when the LSAT reports are sent.
And then all I can say will be embarassing things, like what a horrible job I did on the test.

I can so see this going nowhere, coz he still hasn't gotten over her, and they're meeting again.
If he doesn't ask first about the test score reports, I'll just let this go.