Last presentation in EWU, ever.

1) Todays' presentation will be the last one that I give in EWU as a student, forever.
The quality might not be the best among all the presentations I gave during the six years I spent here, but I'll try my best within the next 12 hours.

1-1) Things will be easier when I am done with that presentation tomorrow!!! 그러니까 힘내자!!!
2) I am coming down with something, and this is NOT good. I think my body is going on a strike because of the end-of-semester stress + plans for the summer + plans I cannot make yet because I still don't bloody know which school I will be attending come August. (Well, I've pretty much decided --after paying a $1,000 seat deposit to UIUC-- to go to BU, but I still want to hear some words of supprot from my professors and other acquaintances. UIUC's admin is super fast/responsive and friendly, but the attraction of Boston the city is irresistible compared to a college town in obscure Urbana-Champaign.)

3) I wish he would seek me, think of me, have questions about me, want to know me.
I don't want to be the only one seeking.

4) I wish I could allow myself to whine to someone without shame. Maybe it will make my life easier. But maybe I need to be more willing to take and accept criticisms.
고3때 수시냐 정시냐 가지고 혼.자.서. 머리 깨지게 고민하고 수학학원 두개씩 다니게 하면서 수시를 해라 말아라 명확하게 얘기도 안해주던 부모님만 원망했던 게, 로스쿨 지원할 때 학교 정하느라 머리 빠개지게 또 혼.자.서. 고민하던 내 모습이랑 똑같다. 왜 자꾸 같은 cycle이 반복되는걸까. 이런걸로 상담 한번 받아보면 좋을 것 같다. 나는 왜 나의 걱정과 고민에 대해서 남에게 말을 못하나. (그래서 비정상적으로 블로그와 싸이 다이어리에 미친듯이 많이 지껄임)

5) I am so tired and sleepy I need to go to bed....... but I still have a long way to go on that damn presentation!!! Should I get some coffee?
하나님 제발제발젭알 머리아프지않게해주세요 ㅠㅠ 졸리지 않게 해주세요ㅠㅠ 제발 3시까지는 끝낼 수 있게 도와주세요 제발ㅠㅠㅠㅠ