perhaps

1. Perhaps
I wasn't 'enchanted' or 'impressed'.
Perhaps
I was only looking for mirror images of myself.
Personalities and habits that I am familiar with, people that don't require a lot of time to get used to.
I was looking for a better version of MYSELF.
I wasn't looking for 'love'.

2. Isn't it amazing how there's always something to do?
There's always something going on and there's always tasks to be done by someone.

3. Playing is not the same as resting.
I firmly hold that one needs a rest after playing.

4. Things keep piling up on my list of things to do and I'm behind schedule on checking things off the list. Soon I will be out of breath, or feeling incompetent. Again.

5. I'm actually good at enduring, when difficult times come along.
But I worry too much about things that haven't come yet.
Things that I think are things to come.