winter & you

It's winter and I didn't see you.
It's winter and you won't pick up the phone.

February and March 1999 is long gone...

But I remember it like yesterday -- no, I have been living in those moments for the past 10 years.

Those beautiful, glorious days.. those days when I didn't know what to do with a blessing and ended up tossing it away...

I needed to see you this winter so I could free myself from being stuck on that point in life, so I could let myself live the present.
I needed to see you this winter so I could prove to myself that I had moved on.

I need to see you so I can apologize and be honest to you.
I need to talk to you so I can have the courage to move on.
結者解之.


(If I had to 'tag' this note, I would have to tag two, or possibly three people.)