Now that I'm finally done with translations (or, as far as I can see/ foresee),
I can't really do anything except 딴짓.
I've been trying to read the cases my supervisor recommended, but just can't seem to focus.
The end is almost always anticlimactic, like this. About time I realized.
I really really want to go watch a movie (like, right NOW) but there are no good movies out lately. (Nor anyone who I'd want to go watch it with... har. I mean, would it matter so much what movie we watch, as long as I like being with that person, than just being together would be the point, not so much the movie.)
The office is pretty quiet now. Not a hectic kind of quiet, but a tired and lazy kind of quiet. So I guess that means all or most of the attorneys are done with the project that they (we, including myself who did most of the damned translations...)
And 바로! at this moment! someone's phone rings, he happens to be not in his seat, so the phone goes off ringing for about a minute, and the ringtone is "Nella Fantasia".... haha suits the atmosphere of the moment perfectly.
Aww. Then the moment is gone.
Anyways I'm glad I've kept this blog. I don't really visit it to read my older posts (which I tend to do with my Cyworld diaries..), but only to rant or keep a record of my fleeting thoughts and emotions. But it's a great hideout because it kind of looks like I'm writing an email when I'm actually writing up worthless shit (like this) to pass the time when other online hideouts/places of procrastination like FB and Cyworld are not available (or rather, too 눈치보여 to go into those sites).
I just want to have... a 'real' vacation... watching all the tv dramas and movies I want, eating whatever I want whenever I want to, staying in when I want, going anywhere I want when I want to, sleeping when I want, working out if and when I feel like it, etc.
Can't believe I was sick the day we went to the beach. I was so sick I had to stay in the car while my family went out to get coffee and play in the sand. I was too sick to stay awake and realize that it really sucked. What a major bummer. It was my only chance to see the ocean this summer (maybe even this year)...
I have a few things I want to buy (I still don't have a black bag), and I need to pay the bills for the subway rides and bus rides, and my daily cuppa, and lunch, and money I spend when meeting friends (which is not that often)... But as of now I have about 10,000 won in all of my bank accounts. Oh damn. It sucks not to be able to make money........ Bah. I would have loved to work at Milky Way :p Or maybe I should have taken up a tutoring job or translation job (which would have driven me crazy, but at least I would be able to pay my own bills). Anyhow the situation really, really sucks.
Should I call that guy? I think he would be up for a movie... But what if he's not? He might be too busy enjoying his life (the only plan he explicitly said he had until he goes into military service)...
Maybe I should call Dr. L when I go to NYC. Call me when you feel like it's too much, she said. Call me if you get too lonely. ........ But of course she would charge me $200/45min if I do call and make an appointment.
I dunno. Sometimes spending time alone feels like it's the greatest thing in the world. But pretty soon I feel like, I wish I had someone to share this precious time with,... But when I actually spend time with someone else, I find myself never quite as happy as I feel when I'm by myself...
I can't really do anything except 딴짓.
I've been trying to read the cases my supervisor recommended, but just can't seem to focus.
The end is almost always anticlimactic, like this. About time I realized.
I really really want to go watch a movie (like, right NOW) but there are no good movies out lately. (Nor anyone who I'd want to go watch it with... har. I mean, would it matter so much what movie we watch, as long as I like being with that person, than just being together would be the point, not so much the movie.)
The office is pretty quiet now. Not a hectic kind of quiet, but a tired and lazy kind of quiet. So I guess that means all or most of the attorneys are done with the project that they (we, including myself who did most of the damned translations...)
And 바로! at this moment! someone's phone rings, he happens to be not in his seat, so the phone goes off ringing for about a minute, and the ringtone is "Nella Fantasia".... haha suits the atmosphere of the moment perfectly.
Aww. Then the moment is gone.
Anyways I'm glad I've kept this blog. I don't really visit it to read my older posts (which I tend to do with my Cyworld diaries..), but only to rant or keep a record of my fleeting thoughts and emotions. But it's a great hideout because it kind of looks like I'm writing an email when I'm actually writing up worthless shit (like this) to pass the time when other online hideouts/places of procrastination like FB and Cyworld are not available (or rather, too 눈치보여 to go into those sites).
I just want to have... a 'real' vacation... watching all the tv dramas and movies I want, eating whatever I want whenever I want to, staying in when I want, going anywhere I want when I want to, sleeping when I want, working out if and when I feel like it, etc.
Can't believe I was sick the day we went to the beach. I was so sick I had to stay in the car while my family went out to get coffee and play in the sand. I was too sick to stay awake and realize that it really sucked. What a major bummer. It was my only chance to see the ocean this summer (maybe even this year)...
I have a few things I want to buy (I still don't have a black bag), and I need to pay the bills for the subway rides and bus rides, and my daily cuppa, and lunch, and money I spend when meeting friends (which is not that often)... But as of now I have about 10,000 won in all of my bank accounts. Oh damn. It sucks not to be able to make money........ Bah. I would have loved to work at Milky Way :p Or maybe I should have taken up a tutoring job or translation job (which would have driven me crazy, but at least I would be able to pay my own bills). Anyhow the situation really, really sucks.
Should I call that guy? I think he would be up for a movie... But what if he's not? He might be too busy enjoying his life (the only plan he explicitly said he had until he goes into military service)...
Maybe I should call Dr. L when I go to NYC. Call me when you feel like it's too much, she said. Call me if you get too lonely. ........ But of course she would charge me $200/45min if I do call and make an appointment.
I dunno. Sometimes spending time alone feels like it's the greatest thing in the world. But pretty soon I feel like, I wish I had someone to share this precious time with,... But when I actually spend time with someone else, I find myself never quite as happy as I feel when I'm by myself...
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