Hyphenated identities are the sh*t these days.
I am just Korean. There's no hyphen there. But I feel so in between. Or, I don't feel like I belong anywhere.
I am definitely a foreigner here in the U.S. A legal 'nonresident alien'.
I feel most at home in Korea, but I don't feel completely at home there.
In Korea, I was too 'internationalized' or 'Americanized' to fit in.
Here, I am most definitely NOT American. Neither can I do so much as imagine myself identifying myself as one.
Life is like an unending quest to find a place that I can really call home.
(Or so it has been until now, and I think it will remain that way for the foreseeable future..)
Will I ever find such a place?
Will I ever feel like I belong to a group that is intrinsically linked with a particular geographic and physical location?
Or will I forever live with 'hovering' identities?
Does it matter so much, as long as I can find friends I can relate to in some aspect?
Is it really a matter of being caught between worlds,
or, to be totally honest,
is it because I am egomaniac who stubbornly refuses to be categorized in something other than 'myself'?
Who constantly needs to be reassured that I AM SO FU*KING SPECIAL?
Am I too proud to relate myself to other people?
Why did this happen?
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